January 2008 Archives

January is almost gone -- and I feel like I've been neglecting this place.

I want to do more here.  I'm going to have to try harder.  Free time just flies away from me, now.  The moments are butterflies...or snowflakes.  Falling up, fluttering away.  I should do more of this, though, because more of this is more like me.  Or at least more like the me I want to be.

It's colder now.  And dark.  The last hours of my two days off.  They are warning of ice and snow in the morning.  I'm back in, then.  Doing my bit for the money.

Gotta try harder.

Gotta get back to being more like me.

"Is that the wind from the desert song?
Is that an autumn leaf falling?
Or is that you, walking home?"
-- How to be Invisible, Kate Bush

Snowflakes were tracing horizontal lines, moments ago: sideways confetti.  A graceful film grain effect, growing the afternoon pale and close.  It's still as a chime, now.  White and silent.  Thursday, and music is playing.  Minutes evaporating.  January fading up and trailing off, into a ghost sky.

It sort of feels like an extended suspension, after the holidays.  Time, and the rhythm of things, linger unfixed.  2008 is unfocused right now.  A wintry blur.  Only today have I taken down my Christmas cards and assorted decorations.  I'm just drifting in the moment, admiring this anticipating that.  Cleaning a bit, puttering around...

To Life, Love, Happiness and Health...

Hello 2008!