collapse

Had a dream, this morning, about the sensation of extreme cold feeling warm.  View that as deeply symbolic, almost smack-me-upside-the-head obvious.  Kind of falling apart at the moment.  Losing so much.  I know it is annoying to hear about it over and over.  I don't care that much.  I'm writing this for me.  To get it out.  Better it falls to ashes externally, than within.  Finishing the last of the Blue Moon.  Did a shot of Patron to commemorate my disassembly.  Guess I'll try to rebuild.  Don't know why.  Maybe it's just momentum...or reflex.  Probably doesn't matter, one way or the other.  Wish I knew a foreign word for something so cold that it feels hot.