Shades (Again)

Deja vu.  Back in 2005, I had lost a love and was drifting aimlessly into Easter weekend.  I never even remotely believed that I would be in the same position, five years later.  Missing even more, now.  Me, my Dad, my Mom and my Grandmother spent that Easter together.  My Mom and my Grandmother are gone now.  Five years seems like nothing.  A scarce handful of sand; certainly not an abundance of time.  I can't believe that's all there was.  For all of us.  It doesn't seem fair.  It hurts like mountains.  I wish I could have it all back -- but it's all gone.  And I'm here, again.